Dark Cloud Surrounding My Day

After I had experienced a week of great happiness and fun, it's so fast that I have myself now surrounded by a dark cloud of unexpected matter. . . I am actually unsure of what's the point this problem, or is it a problem that I am dealing right now. I find it hard to keep inside of me and I tremble and shake everytime the matter comes up to my mind. I want to cure it immediately but the remedy seems to be  unseen. It's hard to have this feeling deep inside me. It's like a virus that the remedy has not yet been developed. Fuck this day! That I have heard or discovered about this problem. I feel so fragile from this day on and 'til the day I find a cure for this problem. . . Damn it! I've been trying hard to concentrate on my studies to have a bright future and suddenly this problem pops up like a spyware that disables my whole system. . .'tang ina, how crazy a person's life can go. It's funny to think that none of you people who reads my blog knows the story behind this problem I have. I wish I could come to you and ask you to help me bare this problem. I guess everything is for me to answer. The fire in mudburn seems to go dim and might be gone for good. . . I was caught unaware of this situation. . . Fuck this day until I find the remedy to this problem. . . A nightmare that I want to get out of as soon as possible. Right now, I feel very unwell, weak and confused. GOD HELP ME. . . . . . . . . . . . .