Dark Cloud Surrounding My Day
Tuesday, November 21, 2006After I had experienced a week of great happiness and fun, it's so fast that I have myself now surrounded by a dark cloud of unexpected matter. . . I am actually unsure of what's the point this problem, or is it a problem that I am dealing right now. I find it hard to keep inside of me and I tremble and shake everytime the matter comes up to my mind. I want to cure it immediately but the remedy seems to be unseen. It's hard to have this feeling deep inside me. It's like a virus that the remedy has not yet been developed. Fuck this day! That I have heard or discovered about this problem. I feel so fragile from this day on and 'til the day I find a cure for this problem. . . Damn it! I've been trying hard to concentrate on my studies to have a bright future and suddenly this problem pops up like a spyware that disables my whole system. . .'tang ina, how crazy a person's life can go. It's funny to think that none of you people who reads my blog knows the story behind this problem I have. I wish I could come to you and ask you to help me bare this problem. I guess everything is for me to answer. The fire in mudburn seems to go dim and might be gone for good. . . I was caught unaware of this situation. . . Fuck this day until I find the remedy to this problem. . . A nightmare that I want to get out of as soon as possible. Right now, I feel very unwell, weak and confused. GOD HELP ME. . . . . . . . . . . . .
Sweet Satan
Monday, November 20, 2006Sweet Satan was a person I met and became friends with since I studied in UIC, last 2005. Her name "Sweet Satan" has got my interest and curiousity. She indeed can be "Satanic" with her attitude towards anybody, anytime, anywhere.(Isa ko sa pinaka-swerte nga tao nga pirmi niya pakitaan ani nga batasan) I don't mind her doing these to me, for I think everytime she does these things to me, I realize I'm knowing her more and more. Truly, she can really be "Satanic". But the adjective that she pares with the name "Satan" makes me more curious. How can somebody so "Satanic" be "Sweet" at the same time??? Last December, she got angry with me for some reason(Amoa nalang to!). She kept her distance from me for almost 9 months. During those 9 months, I tried to approach her and ask for peace, for our friendship to be re-installed but she avoided me and never talked to me. Due to my perseverance(I think Ü), she accepted me as her friend again. Still I was curious why she uses the adjective "Sweet" for her online name. And came November 17 of this year, before this date our friendship was passive and we barely talked or texted one another. As I arrived at home and checked my mobile phone I was surprised to know that a message from "Sweet Satan" has reached me, I immediately read the message and was very happy to know that she texted me to greet me in advance for my birthday. Her greeting for me was so sweet, for I never expected that she would text me to greet me on the day before my birthday. Surely my curiousity about her online nick was answered. Yes. Now, I am a believer that even Satan can also be Sweet. Salamat Satanas! perfect akong bday c",). . . . . . . . .
My 20th year
Friday, November 17, 2006As I say goodbye to my 20th year, I can say this year has been very productive for me. I have been able to prove that I can get along with people much younger than I. I have learned new things that could help me fulfill my ambitions and dreams in life. So happy for myself that I have progressed a lot. Hoping that my friends and loved ones would support me in my years to come. . . thanks to everyone who's loved me and guide me to where I am right now. Thank you to Andro Salazar, Bjonnalyn Isidor, Arman Jack Alcoberes, Evan Lloyd Gaanan, Sherry Grace Pagaran, Stephen John Arinto, Vonne Megham Alegre and Gospel Jay Pocot who's been my family when I entered UIC for my fourth try in college. Thank you to Marlo Simon Noval, Billy Joel Villagonzalo, Harvey Villaver, Jessie Bryle Barriga, Jesus IV Luna, Aries Rebuldad, Ralph Jan Redoña, Arzi Meode, Vladimir Gio, April Rose Ann Kwong, Kristine Lagura, Karen Liwaya, Jasmin, Ellen Boulivar, Maya Masillones and Aiza Loraine Mencidor for helping me in my academic performance in school. A special thank you to Gretyl Misoles for inspiring me to enter the school without having any reason at all. Thank You!
Another Perfect Day
This day is perfect for I have shared it with my friends, cracking jokes and playing stupid. This day, I tried to celebrate my 21st birthday with my classmates. We went to dine at Piccobelo's, we had a hard time of looking for a table that would make our group comfortable. As we waited at the resto's smoking area we were amazed of how the city looked from up there. We had our order taken and waited for it to be served. Unfortunately it took us 3 long hours before we could taste the food we ordered. As we eating and waiting for our other orders to come, we were surprised to know that the waiter misunderstood our order. We ended up starving for more food. We went back to school to attend our last class for the day, ironically we were told that we don't have a class for our instructor was out for a meeting. We went out to take our dinner at Iron Horse for us to fill our starving stomachs with a buffet dinner. Surely we were filled and satisfied with our meal and decided to go our seperate ways to our homes. When I entered our house my father gave me his mobile phone and I was happy to have it for I have been using an old model phone for a while. Just as I entered my room, I checked my phone to see if somebody had texted me, surely I have an unread message. I immediately read it and was very happy to know that it was from Gretyl(SweetSatan) a special friend of mine, greeting me a happy birthday. The message totally completes my day, her greeting has turned this day more special, and surely it is a Perfect Day. . . . .
aiza loraine
Thursday, November 16, 2006I remember this girl in class; smart, charming and friendly. . . As a year in school passed, this girl in my eyes turns out to be a lady in my imagination. Your hair is long and soft that gives you a perfect crown of beauty. Your eyes that gives you the look of true asian beauty. Your chubby body structure which makes me want to gently wrap you in my arms everytime and your smile that relaxes my being and brightens my day. Everything written here is from my point-of-view, hoping someday I will have the courage to tell you, how God made you so beautiful in my eyes. For the moment, I'll be dreaming of your beauty here with me in my imagination. . .
Thank you very much! 
