God’s Own Ways
Thursday, November 23, 2006God has his own ways of easing the pain that I'm taking. Just last last tuesday I was incredibly angry for an untoward incident, God has lessen it's pain by sending "Satanas" her fallen angel to give me some reason to brighten up each night. Yes! si Gretyl, she might concider herself to be a fallen angel but this angel might have fallen for a purpose. . . .and I hope this purpose is to ease my pain and to accompany me to my journey to a happy college life c",). (malay nyo matinuod napud ni! Ü)
Coincidence?
Just this evening, I was asked by my mother to meet her at the mall after my class to join her and her friend to eat diner. After I finished my food, I felt bored for my mother and her friend were still talking. I ask my mother's permission to leave for me not to get bored. As I was walking around the mall, I was thinking of an impossible incident that I would bump to a person that I love to see around the mall.(a special person that is) As I have tired myself of walking around the mall, I received a text message from my mother, that we are leaving. I immediately went over to her on the ground floor and she told me that she has to help her friend get a ride. So, I went to the rest room to take a pee and arranged myself, again looked arround the mall for a while and went over to where my mother has told me to meet her. As we were walking towards the mall's right wing exit, I saw this lovely girl that is very familiar to me, she was walking with another woman (much older than her, probably her mother too!). They were quite slow in walking and we were close behind them as we reached the exit door. I tried to call her name, "Gretyl!", I smiled and all she answered was "Ay!". heheÜ. . . .I think we both were not sure what to say to each other, as I just passed her after calling her name. For people who might read this post it could be a simple incident of coincedence but during the time that I was walking around the mall she was actually the person I was thinking of. I wish I was just making up, but I still can't believe that the incident that I was thinking of a while ago has just came true. . . . . .(Friends na jud mi! nanagad man c",) )
Dark Cloud Surrounding My Day
Tuesday, November 21, 2006After I had experienced a week of great happiness and fun, it's so fast that I have myself now surrounded by a dark cloud of unexpected matter. . . I am actually unsure of what's the point this problem, or is it a problem that I am dealing right now. I find it hard to keep inside of me and I tremble and shake everytime the matter comes up to my mind. I want to cure it immediately but the remedy seems to be unseen. It's hard to have this feeling deep inside me. It's like a virus that the remedy has not yet been developed. Fuck this day! That I have heard or discovered about this problem. I feel so fragile from this day on and 'til the day I find a cure for this problem. . . Damn it! I've been trying hard to concentrate on my studies to have a bright future and suddenly this problem pops up like a spyware that disables my whole system. . .'tang ina, how crazy a person's life can go. It's funny to think that none of you people who reads my blog knows the story behind this problem I have. I wish I could come to you and ask you to help me bare this problem. I guess everything is for me to answer. The fire in mudburn seems to go dim and might be gone for good. . . I was caught unaware of this situation. . . Fuck this day until I find the remedy to this problem. . . A nightmare that I want to get out of as soon as possible. Right now, I feel very unwell, weak and confused. GOD HELP ME. . . . . . . . . . . . .
Sweet Satan
Monday, November 20, 2006Sweet Satan was a person I met and became friends with since I studied in UIC, last 2005. Her name "Sweet Satan" has got my interest and curiousity. She indeed can be "Satanic" with her attitude towards anybody, anytime, anywhere.(Isa ko sa pinaka-swerte nga tao nga pirmi niya pakitaan ani nga batasan) I don't mind her doing these to me, for I think everytime she does these things to me, I realize I'm knowing her more and more. Truly, she can really be "Satanic". But the adjective that she pares with the name "Satan" makes me more curious. How can somebody so "Satanic" be "Sweet" at the same time??? Last December, she got angry with me for some reason(Amoa nalang to!). She kept her distance from me for almost 9 months. During those 9 months, I tried to approach her and ask for peace, for our friendship to be re-installed but she avoided me and never talked to me. Due to my perseverance(I think Ü), she accepted me as her friend again. Still I was curious why she uses the adjective "Sweet" for her online name. And came November 17 of this year, before this date our friendship was passive and we barely talked or texted one another. As I arrived at home and checked my mobile phone I was surprised to know that a message from "Sweet Satan" has reached me, I immediately read the message and was very happy to know that she texted me to greet me in advance for my birthday. Her greeting for me was so sweet, for I never expected that she would text me to greet me on the day before my birthday. Surely my curiousity about her online nick was answered. Yes. Now, I am a believer that even Satan can also be Sweet. Salamat Satanas! perfect akong bday c",). . . . . . . . .
My 20th year
Friday, November 17, 2006As I say goodbye to my 20th year, I can say this year has been very productive for me. I have been able to prove that I can get along with people much younger than I. I have learned new things that could help me fulfill my ambitions and dreams in life. So happy for myself that I have progressed a lot. Hoping that my friends and loved ones would support me in my years to come. . . thanks to everyone who's loved me and guide me to where I am right now. Thank you to Andro Salazar, Bjonnalyn Isidor, Arman Jack Alcoberes, Evan Lloyd Gaanan, Sherry Grace Pagaran, Stephen John Arinto, Vonne Megham Alegre and Gospel Jay Pocot who's been my family when I entered UIC for my fourth try in college. Thank you to Marlo Simon Noval, Billy Joel Villagonzalo, Harvey Villaver, Jessie Bryle Barriga, Jesus IV Luna, Aries Rebuldad, Ralph Jan Redoña, Arzi Meode, Vladimir Gio, April Rose Ann Kwong, Kristine Lagura, Karen Liwaya, Jasmin, Ellen Boulivar, Maya Masillones and Aiza Loraine Mencidor for helping me in my academic performance in school. A special thank you to Gretyl Misoles for inspiring me to enter the school without having any reason at all. Thank You!
Thank you very much! 
